You will always be oblivious to the pain I feel
The heartbreak I have when I think about you
The tears I cry that freeze
The sorrow, love, hate and jealousy I have
I am numb inside my heart has broke at least a thousand times
But this is the worst pain, I never thought I would feel so empty so lost
The rules were broken and now I pay
Do you understand the strength it takes;
To be your friend and hurt inside
To love so much that your numb?
Do you care that I am in pain?
You are far to Oblivious.
You don’t get it, you don’t see
The pain the hurt the tears that come with me
I try to tell you but you don’t listen,
Will you even care if I disappear?
If I vanish into a thick black smoke?
If I vanish into thin air?
I’m trying to fix this
I don’t think I can be that strong
To just let things alone, to just let things be.
Did your heart break when she lied to you?
When she told you she’d loved you?
Did your heart break into pieces to know
That she was just playing games
That you were just a pawn?
Did you cry yourself to sleep at night?
Did you cry through the day when you tried to hide?
I hope it hurt like hell,
Do you think about her often?
If so I hope your heart breaks again and again
I hate you for this, I hate me for hating you
But most of all I hate me for loving you
For giving you the power over me to feel
I want to forget, to make it go away
I want to just lie here alone and cry
Cry til I die, Cry til I laugh, Cry til I lie
Cry til I don’t feel anymore
Til I am completely numb
Til I hate you, Til I can’t think, Til I learn to forgive
I just want to be as oblivious as you are to me
Enough that I can disappear that I no longer can dream.